Wednesday, December 5, 2012

Thoughts and Prayers

It's christmas time, it's supposed to be the most wonderful time of the year right? Why do  emotions and stress levels seem to intensify this time of the year? 
Could it be that we want everything to be perfect, that we expect more from people other than the same drama that fills the rest of the year? I know I do. I'm so exhausted from putting myself out to help those who have no intension on helping themselves, yet for me it's family and my heart aches because I care.  Being the youngest of 6 and pushing 50 I feel like I'm falling apart trying to keep others together for the sake of our mother. I want to know when it became ok for some to be so selfish, to not have a care in the world as to what their selfishness and the destruction of the very life they've been given does to those who love and care about them? 
Addiction is a killer! It doesn't matter to what, it destroys everything! relationships, trust, health, self esteem, family, everything and anything that could have been wonderful. It takes all that is good inside a person and trashes it. No one ever said that life was easy, everybody makes mistakes, but when is enough enough? Why is it that one can be given so many opportunities time and time again to change the bad choices to good and they still choose the bad? I will never understand what ticks inside certain people that they can't appreciate anything, including the gift of life itself, or how they can single handedly destroy themselves having absolutely no regard for the others in their life.
All I can say is that I pray they will find the strength to overcome the sickness and know that they are loved.


Jen said...

Sending lots of prayers!

Kristy Creighton said...

I hear you. My post today was about a similar thing - insofar as I'm the bologna in The Generational Sandwich, too. This past weekend actually depressed me more than anything and I seem to hit that mark every year at some point during the holidays. Having had a family member struggling with addiction, I can say this (and it took me a long time to understand it) - the addiction is the thing making the decisions. I kind of think of it as being held hostage, if that makes any sense. I used to get so angry at the person, because I couldn't comprehend that kind of powerlessness. That being said, you can't save them. But you must protect yourself and your mother, while doing your best to encourage and forgive the addict, so the avenue to recovery and support is always open. It's *such* a fine line and, being in The Sandwich Generation, we don't get a break from either end sometimes. (((Hugs))) Hope you have a better tomorrow!

Kristy @ Shona Skye Creations

Evelyn said...

You really touched me with this. Sometimes everyone needs to visit and relate to someone who is dealing with similar issues. Having a family member who has an addiction and is not fighting it or even trying to correct is just tough. Just lost my mother and I have the feeling I have completely lost this family member. But I can't not allow myself to be pulled down with her.
Just tough times:(

GrandmaSally said...

Thank you ladies for your kind words and prayers.

2busy said...

Addiction of any sort is so far reaching. I don't think that the person even realizes. They can't because they are so self-involved in their problems, they have no idea. Just keep doing what you are doing. You will be blessed for it, I'm sure.

vickilicious said...

My heart and prayers go out to you! Stay strong and continue to do what you've selflessly been doing. Don't forget people with addictions are sick, literally sick. We have to deal with them as patients!

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Shawn said...

So sorry your heart is heavy with this at this time. Addiction is such a sad road to go down. It's devastating to not only the addict, but the family and friends who often watch helplessly as this person self-destructs. I think the feelings are more difficult this time of year because most people's thoughts turn to family. I do hope that you take care of yourself emotionally and physically. Wishing you peace.

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